On the other-hand, he does have court tomorrow and finds out if he's going to jail for a while. I think if I were in his shoes, however, he would discourage me from drinking the night before. He's so obviously as alcoholic as me (he snuck a bunch the night before) but he's stronger, over a foot taller, has a far more intimidating rage-factor, and is the most manipulative man I've ever met. Threatens to break up on the drop of a hat (SOOO much stress), and remember that basically everything that goes wrong in this relationship, including his cheating, is MY fault.

So why am I still with him. Its not that I don't have other options. They're not as comfortable, but they're there.. I genuinely love him when he's not an ass. When he is an ass I have to take responsibility for his actions.

He'll probably read this and if he doesn't admit he did, and holds some resentment towards how I feel; it'll get thrown back in my face in some shape/form.